For the past two weeks, I’ve had plenty of time on my hands. I had knee surgery and had to spend an entire week – 24/7 – in a Continuous Passive Motion (CPM) machine. It kept my knee moving to eliminate stiffness and prevent scar tissue to form. I was only allowed to get out of the CPM machine to use the restroom, shower, and do my physical therapy exercises. I even slept in it – yep, for a week. It became my friend, actually. After struggling through my leg raises and knee bends, I couldn’t wait to get back in the “passive” machine. I decided to take the doctor’s orders as a guilt-free gift to get caught up on some rest and read some books. And I watched a few movies
I pulled a particular DVD out of our stash and blew the dust off. “Bed of Roses” was made in 1996 and wasn’t very popular at the time. The movie didn’t get rave reviews because it’s horribly romantic. It’s about a woman who was orphaned at a young age, raised in an abusive foster parent relationship, and becomes a workaholic in New York City. She is swept off her feet by a “knight in shining armor” who wants to give her “a little too much perfection.” But she believes she is undeserving of the love he lavishes on her and because of her past, she’s incapable of trusting. She finds it hard to believe it’s real. “I live on a little planet called reality, where stuff like that just doesn’t happen,” she says. For months, she finds it nearly impossible to extend her heart. She flees when he takes her to spend Christmas with his family – and proposes right there in the living room amidst the opened presents. You scratch your head and ask, “How can you not accept this?!”
My husband cannot watch a movie without making some kind of political, theological or spiritual application. I think his movie viewing is rubbing off on me because that’s what I did while watching “Bed of Roses” this time – with even more tears, I might add. The “knight in shining armor” character became Christ to me, and the woman became Humanity. We really find it hard to believe Christ could love us so much. It can’t be that simple and perfect at the same time. We don’t deserve it (well, we actually don’t), but that’s called Amazing Grace. God the Father couldn’t possibly be interested in my “little ol’ life” while there are millions really suffering in the world. And we find it extremely hard to extend our whole heart to Him. Yet He is there, lavishing His love on us.
A while back, I went through a Bible study by Debbie Alsdorf entitled, “He is My All – Living in the Truth of God’s Love for Me.” I think I’m going to blow the dust off of it as well and wrap myself in His lavishing love. I feel the need to be reminded.
How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! – 1 John 3:1